Incoherently Decided

It's so hard to describe the state I'm in right now. So near the end ... and the beginning. I'm ready to leave, but I'll miss so much once I do. Emotions all over the place. I can't be anyone but me, so any effort put towards being something else is just wasted. I know what I know. I've got all that I need. Why can't I make my ... heart? ... listen? I'm not ready. I need more time. This is my story. Words aren't enough. I can soar on wings like eagles. I can laugh and run. I am free! I'm thinking too much. I take for granted the wonderful things that have been handed to me. I can't know every thing. Conclusion: more prayer is needed.